Love Struck (2)
"Udah dari tadi ya?"
Terjadi 3seconds moment, dimana gue ngga sadar itu Aaron.
"Eh. Kirain siapa"
"Be aware!"
2hours sit beside him, hearing his light laughter. Belum pernah gue merasakan hal seperti ini.
Tepat 5menit sebelum film selesai, Aaron berdiri agak nunduk sambil jalankearah luar sambil bilang "eh gue duluan" samar2 gue denger Alex nyeletuk "beser"
I guess my feeling to him is too strong...
While everyone planing to go to karaoke, I guess I better going home.
Gue pulang kerumah sekitar jam 9malem, cuci muka (gak biasa mandi malem?) cek handphone, tidur. Tadinya paling gue kayak gitu. Tetiba ada telpon nomer indonesia yg gak gue ketahui, gak gue angkat.
Lalu dia sms:
Julian, ini Aaron, lu knp lgs pulang? Pdhl gue mau minta tolong samting lama lu.
That was Aaron!
Aaron ask my help to do his project. So after he worked 1month later, his project (instagram project) was ruined. Too much delay and he thinks he cant do it alone. Since I got my design degree too, then he asked me to help him. And I am extremely happy to help him. Kami agak intense chat, bahas cara dan rule project nya. Sekitar seminggu gue menyelesaikan gambar yang disuruh Aaron.
Seminggu setelah nonton, gue meet up sama aaron untuk liat hasil yang gue kerjain. Seperti biasa kami meetup di kafe yang sama.
He talk to me like we just meet, like "susah ngga?" No intro, no hai, no greetings... ya we just work partner.
...
I feel like I cant hold this feelings anymore. But I'm afraid it could be worse if he know my feelings...
After we talking about job, I closed my laptop and then stars say somethings
"Aaron... actually I have something to tell you... um... it's about... ah, I just... I just... I dont know... (deep breathe) I think I like you... I know this is so stupid... I understand u might be not someone that... u know... like man... I mean, u might be not... u know... a gay... but... I just... I just cant hold this feeling to you... look... I'm... I'm so sorry..."
I cant see his face. Im too afraid to face his face... he didnt explain anything, just one phrases "sorry Julian"
"Can you just explain why?"
"I just can't..."
"Is it about Jun?"
"Maksudnya?"
"I know u were dating with my bro"
"It's not about that Julian"
"Then why?"
"Gada alasan sih, cuma sekarang gue gak bisa aja"
"You dont like me? You hates me?"
"Gak bisa bukan berarti benci lah"
Yeah that's me... Sometimes I have to push something to get what I want.
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@xxCENTAURIART since 2013, project yang Aaron jalanin sendiri, berupa jasa ilustrasi.
