I am not that innocent

Hi! Been a while. Gue masih belajar untuk purely berbahasa indonesia disini, meskipun itu bahasa ibu gue dan gue suka pakai disana saat bicara sama eyang, tetep aja ini seperti bahasa kedua buat gue.

Well, Gue udah hampir 1 tahun stay di Indonesia, ada banyak yang gue gak tau udah mulai gue tau sekarang. Gue juga udah mulai punya temen baik dikampus.

Pertemuan gue dengan pacar saudara gue sendiri tanpa gue sadari udah jadi kayak kebiasaan. Hampir seminggu 2x gue ketemu Aaron di coffe shop dan di tempat duduk yang sama. Aaron such a nice man. Aaron seperti google buat gue, setiap kali kue tanya, dia selalu tau jawabannya.

Sampai waktu dimana gue 3x ke coffe shop 3x pula gue ngga ngeliat batang hidung Aaron.

Pikir gue, mungkin Aaron sibuk.
Waktu itu ujan, bulan desember hampir natal, gue inisiatip untuk cari tau kenapa Aaron gak muncul selama 2minggu. Note: gue dan Aaron hanya sekedar kawan ngobrol di kafe yang sama sekali ngga keepintouch via apapun.

I guess Aaron is not a typical person that like to brag... Aaron ngga bisa dicari di Instagram, Facebook dan lain2. I totally can not find him... Oh my god, I just realized, that I did too far. I forgot.... that he is my bro’s BF... I can not do this, and Finally I start to stop my curiousness, and enjoy my college life. And pretend there’s nothing happened to this feeling. Maybe... I guess... I think... I like him...

While I was busy looking forward about Aaron, a girl from my class___ Anggi, told me that she likes me... kinda awkward, because we never talk intensely before, she just so sudden told me that she likes me. she asked me to dating with her.

Sebenernya ini bukan kali pertama gue dapet confession dari cewek. Tapi gue belum pernah punya pacar sih. Karena gue ngga begitu tau apa makna pacaran, apa beda pacaran dan berkawan. Setelah gue diskusiin ini sama teman dekat gue___ Dita, gue memutuskan untuk berpacaran sama Anggi. Diskusiin? yes! karena gue (jujur) gatau harus melakukan apa, akhirnya gue minta advice ke Dita, orang terdekat dikampus. Dita said Anggi such a nice person... I think so, and kind of cute girl. She is younger than me. of course! I am 3years older that my friends average. Haha

Mungkin karena masih baru, jadi gue ngga menunjukan kalo gue punya pacar, well, I dont understand how to treat a girl when we are pacaran. Should I bragging to other ppl that we are dating? like "ini pacar gue" kissing in public... hemm nah, if like that then I refuse. Or, I just can't get it because my feelings doesn't belong to her? let's see.

Karena itulah, kadang gue suka jadi korban ceramah temen2 gue. Contohnya, disaat gue jalan bareng temen2 gue dan Anggi, gue dianggap ngga normal karena gue lebih cenderung ngobrol bareng Dita dan Randy, ketimbang jalan berdampingan sama Anggi. I think that's normal, but they said "kasian Anggi ngga dianggap"

Actually I am not that innocent... I just a confuse man, like... when I dont understand what to do, someone lead, then I will do. 

Andita Irawan, Gilang Fitria Girsang, Elizabeth Mona, Randy Putra

Febriana Anggi

Temen kampus banyak, tapi yang dekat cuma Dita, Gilang, Mona dan pacarnya__ Randy. For me close friends are always sticking out of me. If there’s me, also they are.

Anggi, yang status nya lagi jadi pacar gue sekarang.